I just decided to self analyse today as to what was the reason for my frequent mood swings.I thought hard and rationally.......and wat i felt was that I m totally unconcerned about all the shit in this world and i m oblivious to everyone around me who are not in my circle......now my circle means a society of people who i give respect and appreciate for their innate qualities......the people in this circle may be someone who i meet occasionaly or rarely or a close friend of mine......Now wen i walk out in this world i view the world with a glass where the people in my circle appear bright n visible and the rest of the world is like a smokescreen........Now how is this related to my mood swings.....hmmmm.....now sometimes wen a person in my circle shows some qualities which r uncharacteristic of i get all fucked up by myself.....i get dissapointed by myself tat how the hell did i make this mistake of including them in my circle( appropriate qualities n behaviour r decided by me afterall its my bloody life....)And then i thought hard again as to wat is the solution to this "swinging" problem....I outlined some ways.....
First is to be very very choosy abt gettin pple in ur circle.....
Second is to get rid of all this theory which i hav actually made up n get playful..in other words to keep friending n befriending the world as u move along....dont carry any baggage along....
Third is to continue like before n let the law of nature take over......dont think too much......
And as of now i m still pretty undecided about what is the better way to choose frm but as i m writing this i feel i would go for the third choice only.......the reason being that now wen i m writing this i m a satisfied person....i hav no complaints with life n given a chance i wld want everything to stay as it is at this very moment........I feel i live a dynamic life and my life has given me so many experiences n feelings each day........I find my life interesting n its the way i live my life tat makes it interesting.......

And before i end one interesting thing which someone said to me abt my mood swings....
"Abhishek tera pata hai kya scene hai......tera funda hai......jisse banti hai usse bana kar rakho aur jisse nahi banti usse BIGAD kar rakho....."

..hahaha.....i might agree to this...u dont have to PRETEND to be friends with anyone....u dont hav to a hypocrite at least.....

In this fast running life ,how do we manage a mix of our professional/personal lives -our daily chores the office work, our loved ones at home and still have enough time for ourselves.share your experiences ,moments ,events that changed your life ,challenges faced,things you wanted to do in life -

First, I would like to ameliorate that its not possible to have seperate personal and professional lives.If you believe that you have seperate professional and personal lives then you are probably living a dubious life,the life of your alter ego.There is no point in making your life so complicated where you make an attempt to behave professionally with a few and personally with others.

My idea is to imbibe the best of both into one. Being a professional literally means exhibiting courteous, conscientious, and ethical standards in the workplace while beingpersonal means having the qualities of a person rather than a thing or abstraction.Its about being the same person whether you are at office,at home,on a street,in a movie hall,in a restaurant.

A moment that changed my life.........none......because there is no ONE moment that changeslife.Every moment and event everyday changes life.'Rightly said about change - A bend in the road is not the end of the road unless you fail to make the turn.

Things I wanted to do in life - Read on.....

I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the nightI was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
Well yes I'm still running
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for[- U2]

This song one of the best by band U2....
band members -- Bono, guitarist the Edge, drummer Larry Mullen Jr. and bassist Adam Clayton ...


Tough, you think you’ve got the stuff
You’re telling me and anyone
You’re hard enough
You don’t have to put up a fight
You don’t have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don’t have to go it alone
And it’s you when I look in the mirror
And it’s you when I don’t pick up the phone
Sometimes you can’t make it on your own
We fight all the time
You and I… that’s alright
We’re the same soulI don’t need…
I don’t need to hear you say
That if we weren’t so alike
You’d like me a whole lot more
Listen to me nowI need to let you know
You don’t have to go it alone
And it’s you when I look in the mirror
And it’s you when I don’t pick up the phone
Sometimes you can’t make it on your own
I know that we don’t talkI’m sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me – when – I -Sing, you’re the reason I sing
You’re the reason why the opera is in me…
Where are we now?I’ve got to let you know
A house still doesn’t make a home
Don’t leave me here alone...
And it’s you when I look in the mirror
And it’s you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can’t make it on your own
Sometimes you can’t make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can’t make it on your own